I once was lost but now I'm found
I lived a very hard life before I met Jesus. I was not a very good person I had no friends. I ran with the devil and was a very evil person. It was all about me and nobody else and if you couldn’t do any thing for me or couldn’t give me something, then you were nothing to me. But if I saw a chance to get something from you look out, I would con you, steal from you, cheat you, hurt you, whatever it took to get what I wanted no matter what, your feelings didn’t matter at all. It didn’t even matter who you were nothing mattered except me.
This sounds pretty dismal doesn’t it? But it is true and as I think back on the way I was it makes me sick. I was heading towards told disaster. I had my spot marked in hell. I had prime real estate in the hottest place there is. I was in and out of trouble most of my life. As a juvenile I was arrested for breaking into houses and doing drugs. But it didn’t stop there. I did many things throughout my adult life, things I was never caught for. I sold drugs. I was a thief and a pervert. I never liked myself no matter what I did or how much money I had. I was always missing something. I searched and searched but could never find what I was missing I was miserable.
I smoked pot every day for 25 years. I smoked pot longer than I smoked cigarettes trying to make myself happy. Trying to fill the void that was inside of me. I tried everything from drugs, to crime, to sex, nothing ever helped. I got so deep into drugs I was smoking glass “that is methamphetamine” and I got addicted. I had been smoking this for almost a year. At that time I had my own business, but I smoked so much glass and was spending so much money on it. At one point I was spending over $300.00 every two or three days. I was running my business into the ground, and I started spending my bill money on methamphetamines.
Somehow, probably because I pretty much ran out of money, I got myself to stop. I say myself here but I know it wasn’t by myself. I was very depressed and lost, nothing was going right in my life. This is when I did something very, very bad and ended up in jail. I was 39 years old, and at this point I completely destroyed everything in my life, and I mean everything. I was at the lowest point I had ever been. I even contemplated suicide.
As I sat in my little six by nine cell away from the drugs, away from the money, away from all my evil desires, I heard something. Something was telling me it’s time to read the Bible. At first I didn’t listen. I was too caught up in my self pity and selfishness, but I kept hearing this little voice inside telling me over and over, its time to read the Bible. After about two weeks of hearing this I decided maybe I do need to read the Bible. So I put in a request for a Bible then I returned to wallowing in my sorrow.
At this point I considered myself pond scum, that’s what I thought I was. I had given up all hope of ever seeing my family again and I saw no hope of ever getting out of jail. I assumed I would spend the rest of my life there and deserved to be there. One morning while I was eating my breakfast bologna sandwich, I was given a Bible. At first I didn’t think much of it and sat it on my little metal table and ignored it. It took me a couple more days before I finally picked it up and decided, why not I’ll try it what do I have to lose. So there I was sitting on my little thin mattress on my metal bunk and I didn’t know it at that time, but I had just made the best decision I had ever made in my entire life.
I was still unsure whether I could even read the Bible or understand it, but I didn’t think I had anything to lose. So I started reading from page one. Genesis, first chapter first verse and you know what? I couldn’t stop reading. I couldn’t put that book down for anything. I read day and night. The only time I stopped reading was after they turned the lights off and I couldn’t see anymore. This book, the Bible that I was reading was nothing like I expected. It was completely different than any thing I had ever imagined. I was reading stories about things that I may have heard of but had no idea what they were or what they meant. Now I was reading them for myself.
The more I read the more I wanted to know, the farther I got the farther I wanted to go. I got about halfway through this Bible and it was like a light bulb lit up and my eyes were opened and I could see for the first time, I was blind and now I can see. It was amazing I was laying there and I realized this is it, this is what I’ve been missing all my life, this is what I’ve been running from but trying to get all my life. It was like somebody poured ice cold water over my head and woke me up. I finally found it. I finally found what I was missing. I finally found the missing link. I wished I could have seen the look on my face. I’m sure it was a look of shock and excitement and fulfillment.
Right then, at that very moment, I prayed, I prayed to Jesus. I prayed and asked God to forgive me for all my sins and to come into my heart and to be part of me. Then something very special and exciting happened to me, my life changed. My life took a complete turn, the biggest u-turn I ever made. I turned right around and headed towards God and I didn’t look back to see what the devil was doing. I ran and ran and ran. I ran towards God and I cried and cried and laughed. I was lying in my cell in jail with no hope of ever getting out and I was smiling and laughing and thinking I am the happiest man in this whole wide world.
You see I found Jesus. I found the Lord. I once was lost but now I’m found and I am so thankful for everything God has done for me. Let me tell you he has worked miracles in my life. Because of God I only spent one year in jail he let me out, not the judge, not the guard, not Sheriff Joe, but Jesus. Jesus gave me my freedom when I first asked him into my heart and my life. Then he opened the gates and let me out of jail and he continues day after day blessing me. He helps me, he holds me, he loves me, he takes care of me. It’s only because of him that I’m even alive today. It’s only because of Jesus that I have a roof over my head, that I have money in my pocket, that I have food in my refrigerator, that I have shoes on my feet. No matter what, he is the only reason I have anything.
The lord has changed my life so much. I have friends now, and I can be a friend to somebody. You would not have wanted me to be your friend before Jesus, but now I can be. When I accepted Jesus the old me passed away and I became a new creature. I am not the same person I was and I will never be that person again. I’m so thankful for everything that Jesus has done and given me.
Jesus can be there for you too. Jesus can help you no matter what you have done. He loves you, he died on the cross so you can have life. Think about that, he died for you! I can’t think of any thing or anybody that would ever do anything like that, but he did. He died for you so you can have life. He took all your sins, past, present and future, all of them and paid the price for you, all for you. All you need to do to accept this gift is to believe that Jesus died on the cross for you. Just pray and ask for forgiveness. Ask Jesus to come into your heart. He’s waiting at the door. The door is always open. All you have to do is ask and you will receive. He’s waiting there for you. He’s waiting for you to ask and when you do your life will be changed forever.
There’s nothing better than the love, the peace and the joy that comes with knowing Jesus. He will bless you abundantly above and beyond any thing you could ever imagine. There are a couple verses that I would like to give you and I would like you to think about. A couple truths that the lord has given us. One is, if god is for us, who could be against us. Think about that, if god is for us, who could be against us? Nobody, nobody could be against us. Nobody can do any thing to us. We are safe in God’s hands. God’s love covers us completely.
Another one I like a lot is, we can do all things through Christ who strengthens us. All things, anything is possible, anything with Jesus on your side if you have Jesus on your team and Jesus in your heart and if Jesus is a real part of your everyday life, then you can do all things through Christ who strengthens us. All things, not some things, all things. This is a free gift. You don’t have to earn it, you don’t have to buy it, it’s free, free for anyone who asks. Free to you, free to me, free to anyone. A free gift. Everybody likes free gifts don’t they?
Jesus is waiting for you. Don’t lose your opportunity. Don’t put it off, because nobody knows the time when they will either die or the time Jesus will return. He’s waiting for you with open arms he’s waiting to love you and hold you and care for you. He loves you no matter what. Please accept his free gift. Ask him into your life today, right now.
Please pray this prayer. Jesus, I am a sinner, please forgive me for all my sins. I believe that you died on the cross for me. I believe you are the son of God. I ask you now to come into my heart and to teach me your ways. Help me to be the person that you want me to be. In Jesus precious loving name I pray, Amen.
If you prayed this prayer you are now a son or daughter of God. But please don’t just stop here, get yourself a Bible and try and find a good Bible teaching church. Read your Bible every day. There are so many great truths and many promises in the Bible. The Bible is a lot like an instruction manual on how to live your life. Work hard at building a relationship with Jesus and keep working and getting closer and closer to him. He will show you and teach you through his word everything you need to know. Love him with all your heart, mind, body, soul, every part of you and he will love you more than you could ever imagine.
God bless you